It was never my intention or choice to be born someone that the society judge by my looks. I mean I've been a subject of rude approach, unnecessary criticism, and excessive Judgement. It wouldn't have mattered to me though, except that I always have to convince people that I'm not a criminal. I don't know how other people feel, but in all my life, I've always had to correct the wrong impression people have about me first before I start making sense. Unfortunately, this always happens less than 5% of every 100% of such cases. It's very rare for people to even give me the chance to change whatever impression they might have misconstrued from just merely meeting me. The disdainful way in which I'm treated all the time has pierced into my self esteem so deep that I'm already afraid of talking in public, or even trying to meet people who I need to meet. It's like a plague. I just wish I could free myself from its shackles. Character wise, I've tried to be the best, gallivanting from one website to the other, reading many self development books and adapting all the teachings to my daily life but still, I can't seem to make any progress. I don't even know who the fu(k I am anymore! I've decided to let everyone be, just live my life my way without interfering with anybody, again, I remember (and know) that the sea of this life cannot be navigated alone. I'm not financially buoyant, I'm not born with a silver spoon either. I'm just a 23 years old man with a dream, a responsibility, and a life to live. PS: I'm writing this here just to let this out of my mind. I'm really sorry for myself, I really am. Have you ever been judged by your looks? How did you still progress and succeed despite the downside and all?