Lots of things I've experienced in my life. The good, the bad and the ugly times if I seem to be a thorough lesson to me and how I operate my life and soul now. Moving forward, growing up, my Mama use to tell me "boy, beware of bad friends". I've got lots of friends around me. And honestly, deep down my heart and soul, I love my family and friends. My prayer every day is to see us grow all. But I wasn't getting back the love. One thing that kills me is, I never forgive women, but I always forgive the men. This is my weakness. I rate my fellow man above women. Even during offering help and grants, Gifts and every. But I'm not gay I was just Redpill. Girls love to be around me but I don't give them the energy they want. Broken up with a lot of women just because I and my friends always have misunderstood because of them in Situations as she tells me "baby could you believe your friend is asking me out, baby your friend touched my ass, Baby your friend told me you're fvcking another girl". Are you dating me or your friends" kinda situation? Snitch! Snitching! Snitchery! My bad, a lot of my friends and males ive helped over women. I always feel women don't need help and I'm always there for my friends. Whatever I do, I try to involve them so we all benefit from it. That's just me. I'm always good at bringing new ideas that will bring money, bring money, bring money and bring sex. That's me. They all love to be around me. I just found out that they are around me because of what they're benefitting from me. I fell so many times. Stand up, fell again. Especially financially because of friends. They're always on me bringing one problem or the other. This time my fall was like falling from a Mango tree. Everything spoilt. And also got to the point of being homeless with sickness. What shocked me is, everyone Vanished. Both family and friends. Everyone ran away, I picked up myself. But now I'm a Wise man. This is my plan honestly. I'm a person that will never stop giving to anyone close to me that's just me. Now I don't want this to happen again. I thought of something, this might shock you. There was a year, I use to work in an eatery. That year, I use to bring home food for a dog in our area. For just a space of 3 weeks, I worked in that eatery that year. The food I do bring home even remained and crumbs of a different kind of food. But could you believe till that dog left died? He was always showing me love and always there for me in times of danger whenever someone want to attack me. The lovely welcome home shaking of tail he gives to me whenever he sees me going to work or coming back gives me the joy to want to do more for him but I was not working at an eatery where I get free food for him again. What I'm talking about is more than 10years now. Now, I thought of buying a dog and giving the dog all that the dog deserves to live a good life than helping people close to me again. Be it, friends and family. I don't want to give a Man more than what he deserves again because they still bite the hands that feed them. I'm not saying I want to start showing women, love. When I say Man, I mean all human this time. I don't care how society sees me. I don't care what people will say now. I can't kill myself. I nearly ran mad. But thank God for life. Thank God for Arizona which is don't smoke before but I started smoking because of thinking. I was a concrete anti-smoking ambassador. But I lost it when I had to hold into it than for me to commit suicide. I can still stop smoking when I want to but if I commit suicide there's no second chance. That's my feeling and thank God I was able to smoke responsibly. For my family, the people I care more about in every angle of life. People I wished and pray God just give me my heart desires let me show this family who I am true. Let me spoil them with more love and support but they always dump me during hard times. This is what I feel. Yes, this is what I feel. It's now obvious. Even the woman that gave birth to me that I called my mother. Yes, this is what it is. I was dying in the hospital. My mum came and didn't even show remorse for seeing me the first time lying on a hospital bed. I couldn't even pay for my treatment. And she's doing business. And I always support her with the little I have. It's all fine. Now I just want to show real love to dogs. Honestly. They can't pay me with bad. That's what I believe. Please any dog owner in the house. Be it Pet or grown. Please speak up. How's the feeling and vibes between you and your dog? Are you getting the love back? Note: I want to give God all the glory for giving me Wizkid Made In Lagos. That music kept me going. I'm the only one that understand this. I'm the only one honestly.