I don't like attention, I always get wet when I see someone in extreme pain and I can orgasm if I'm the one inflicting the pain. I always look for gory pictures whenever I hear something bad. If I see a post on accidents, it only gets interesting when the graphic pictures are included. I'm extremely interested in knowing more about someone that bad things has happened to. Whenever I'm alone, Sinister things always cross my mind. A good way for me to think is when I can induce the sad mood for myself. Or find something that will make me extremely sad. Is this normal??