Hello Guy's.. I trust you're all good? I created a new anonymous account because I don't want to be known. To cut my bull crappie story short. I am 21, A cute looking boy and a Virgin. Don't see me as a Saint or an holy person yet because I do smoke at least two times in a month whenever I'm with my friends. I love girls too but I don't have a girlfriend. I Should've graduated last year but I took leave of absence in my Uni during the covid19 pandemic but I am reinstated back to School to finalise my finals. The thing now is I do see my friends driving cars both on campus and at home. I mean sophisticated big cars. Even my childhood friend who doesn't have a car yet puts on expensive designer shoes and dresses . He uses the latest iPhone and I know he bought it brand new for 650k last year.His apple Laptop isn't left out ooo with his well Furnished campus apartment & co. Another funny thing is that i even saw my junior's during secondary school days driving cars now.. I graduated from Sec sch at age 16(2016), I entered uni that same year too. But I checked the trend! They're all yahoo boy's. Sometimes I felt like I wanna join them desperately but something keeps telling me that it's not my way. My Dad would warn me that their money is just for a while.. He would tell me not to share anything with them. But Rn, I'm Feeling Oppressed. And it's not that I am Lazy! I am not. Early this year, I closed my damn eyes and paid for a 50k Online affiliate course just because I believe maybe I could make dope money online legally instead of going illegal. I can show you the screenshot of the payment I made. Now my questions are; Am I under a spell? or Do you people guess something isn't going well with me? I am asking these ridiculous questions because I am totally different from the colleagues of mine i do see. I have big visions for myself , Big dreams &Goals but God would not fall from heaven to bless me. My Dad is a Clergy. This man own the primary and secondary school that I graduated from. I got big dreams that I wanna build a University in the future, I want to be Good in business, Go into politics and so more. The funniest thing is that people actually think that I am rich.. Some friends of mine think so. Lol. I remembered the day I went to see my HOD in her office, my female course mate who came to submit their project hard copy were like hey (Jason.. fake name) it's been a while. Did you bring your car? Take us to the cafeteria, we're hungry. I took them thoo..and paid for their meal. But I was like Car ke? I never owned one. I just need an advice from matured mind's on what to do with my life. Like I need some motivational word's. Thank y'll.