STORY OF MY LIFE (PLEASE HELP ME THIS IS A CRY FOR HELP) Hi everyone, I need to share this with people because I don’t know what to do anymore. I have been on naijaworld since I was sixteen and I had to create this alternate account as I am scared someone might know me even though my real account is not active. I just turned twenty this year and I am at my second year of study. I am a depressed young woman. I am studying law in one of the top federal universities in Nigeria and I am on a GP of 3.8 out of 4.0 The problem is I have a lot of mental health issues, I am prone to panic attacks, I have anxiety and these past days I just break down in tears and feel hopeless and blank. The depression I have been trying to ward off is fully back. I carry this weight on my chest that won’t ease. I can’t see a shrink/therapist because I don’t have the money/means to do so and my parents won’t help me with that aspect. They are very traditional and believe that mental hospitals are for mad people. They know that I have mental health issues but they just counsel me and warn against me killing myself because I am quite suicidal. My chest is really heavy and it feels like I am dying every night I don’t know what to do again. I even pray to God to heal me and make this pain go away. ****************************** Asides from my woes, I am a creative writer, I vent all I want in my writings but I don’t share them. I also love kids and I hope I can one day impact people life positively, I dream of working with UNICEF and these dreams sometimes keep me going but now I have hit a stand still, I really don’t want to die this young. I don’t have any friends and I am really introverted. PS: please everyone, I don’t know if I can get an online job that relates with writing, I can edit and write beautifully and my Microsoft word skills is excellent. I don’t want to be forever dependent on my parents and if I have a regular income, I can take better care of my health, see a therapist, get professional help and probably get medications so my quality of life can improve. Thank you so much if you took your time to read this through, May God bless you.